Suicide - a think piece

This Is Not a Cry for Help and This Does Not Need a Wellness Check

People are NOT allowed to even talk about this normally. But this is an exercise in self expression and I shoudln’t get penalized for it. Its about a specific situation and not the ramblings of a “crazy” person

Sometimes, my logical head—not the broken part, or the child-wailing-on-the-floor part
The reasonable part (admittedly very small in me) presents suicide as an option.
The sheer absolute, unfathomable pain I experience from being parted from my two gorgeous amazing beautiful children makes me want to die and I should be able to voice that in a “think piece” like this.

Im very glad its for a REASON, which means its not depression. If it was just popping into my head for no reason, I would be way more worried. Ive experienced that. In my understanding., if it’s for a reason, it’s just “sadness” , a horrendously bad sadness, yes, but a sadness nevertheless.

I think this is allowed here on substack ? Its in my diary today therefore it GOES on Substack now

So…